Ystd was the best day i had. But when he was leaving ystd, i just came back from the water cooler. He didnt even look at me … That kept me thinking. I know he noticed me but he chose to just ignore. What does that mean ?? When i choose to ignore someone i notice it means i have no interest in them :( Its really time to forget him. One day… I’ll be able to say that he was just one of my HUGE crush.

I need to ngaji today. I feel so guilty right now. I need to get closer to Allah. And tmr, I have to go Masjid. Going to Masjid Ghufran is on top of the list tmr. Nth gets in the way.
I dont think I’ll like anyone as much as i like Syahir. Never. I just cant imagine liking someone more than him. Is a crush even allowed to last this long ?? :’(
Bismillah. Ya Allah, please help me get through this interview smoothly. If it is whats best, help me get the place. If not, then I understand that you have better plans for me.

I wish I could go back to Mecca and Medina. I just wanna go to Masjid and pray. I dont want to have to think of so many things. I envy the people who live there. They might not have the same kind of security we have here or same kind of technology… But they are all Muslims. When its time to pray … Everyone understands that that is their priority and everything else is put aside.

I just need to hold back my tears till i get home.
Today has been great. Just when I thought I wont see you today. I SAW YOU. Then again outside the classrooms. Then otw back after praying, u came out of the lift. This is all more than I can ask for. SO…. I thought maybe… Just maybe… Can i see you one last time before i go home ?